pack it in

Have you ever had one of those days/weeks where you want to just pack it all up, change your name, change your identity and goals and just run away?  This week has been a bit like that.  I'm so exhausted lately it's really starting to effect my mood and my structure of life.  I'm normally not like this.  But I feel spent.  Maybe this is just part of the course I'm running.  The treatments are making me anemic which is in turn running me down even harder.  Finding 101 ways to prepare kale.  Eating lots of bran, kale type greens, chickpeas, and so much Whey and Green protein powder I should buy stock in the company.  If only I could just slam down a pound of liver.  :S

Anyway, yes, tired, run down Clare is still excited about things though.  She's excited for her Day at the Spa next week.  She's excited to wear a dress out and about.  She's excited to partake in the 42 days of World Gratitude (worldgratitude.com) coming up starting on the solstice.  She's excited to stop talking in the third person.  

Life is still going and I'm doing well.  I see the doc on Monday again. 

I will keep on keeping on and hopefully my energy levels will start to rise.  Maybe I just need a good cry?  Sometimes I think I'm trying so hard to be positive that I forget to grieve the pain out.  Anyone got a good shoulder?  :) 

NAMASTE Y'ALL

xx